I've spent the day conquering my fears.
It's been a pretty thrilling day.
This morning I spoke to the department chair of a graduate program at a well known and respected university in my field. I'm not really a phone person but I kept my "ums" and "likes" under control and the conversation went smoothly. It was a very encouraging conversation, especially since I finally got some (promising) feedback on my GRE scores. The professor told me to save the date of the department's meet 'n' greet for promising applicants. There's still a lot of work to be done but at least it feels less like a shot in the dark.
A few weeks ago I put up a note up in my apartment building's entryway inviting people to stop by on Halloween. Meeting new people isn't something I'm good at which means it's something I periodically feel like I have to work on becoming better at. The evening started off slow but for a good hour and a half my small kitchen was crammed with chatting strangers who, for some strange reason, all appeared to be having a decent time. And I even remember everybody's names.
As it turns out, this Halloween I did a pretty damn good job controlling my fears. That is all, I guess.