Sunday, August 28, 2005

My Incubus

I haven't gone to sleep later than 11 o'clock in the past three days.
Yesterday I tucked myself into bed before 10.
Tonight, it's 10:20.
And I'm still tired.

I came back to Berkeley tonight knowing there would be no reason to stay up late tonight, but hoping anyways. But sleep is pretty much the only thing that appeals anymore. These days it's the only time I'm 100% there.

But even it is a fickle lover and I wake up alone at 2 am, 6 am, tangled in my pajamas, bed sheets, soaked in sweat and panicked. I repeat the multiplication tables to myself until finally drift off again.

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